27 Weeks! Christmas is coming!!!

Bubba you are getting so big!! My back has been hurting from the weight of the baby. It is getting harder to work on the ambulance with all the bending and lifting.  But overall I have been really blessed with just how easy this pregnancy has been.  I have still been able to continue my heavy work schedule to be able to get the money saved that I need to have time off with him later. I am extremely greatful for that.  (Now watch I probably jinxed myself!)

He is a sneaky little baby!  He moves and kicks so much all the time, then my mom tries to feel him move and he will stop. Or he will kick just above or below her hand.  I started having braxton-hicks contractions and it is funny becuase right after the first one he like stretched.  I could feel him at the top and the bottom of my stomach. "Stop squishing me!"  It was really funny. He got the hiccups once too.  I am just in awe every moment at what my body is doing.  I cannot believe how wonderful pregnancy is and how the whole things is just like magic.  I am getting nervous and very excited about the next part....actually having to push him out.  It probably wont seem so magical then... :)

I am fairly sure that I know what his name is going to be.  I have had several that I have liked. But this one feels different.  I am not going to share it with people until he is born.  That way it is just mine until I know for sure that is who he is supposed to be when I see him.  I am so excited!!!  If he was born today (HEAVEN FORBID!!!!) he would have a 85-90% chance of surviving, and the odds grow every day.  With that being said, Bubba please stay put until you are all cooked and supposed to be here! 

Christmas is in two days!! I am so ready and excited!!! Yay for family time!

Engaged!

NO NOT ME!! NO WAY NO HOW!!!

My little sister is engaged to her boyfriend Colton Savage.  We pretty much all expected it, though perhaps not this soon........

Well Bubba I guess you will get a new uncle.  They said you can be the ring bearer and get a tiny tiny tuxedo! So excited!!

25 Weeks!

Dear Bubba,

I had a doctors appt. today. He saws you are growing well and no problems.  After next appointment at the beginning of January we are going to start going every other week instead of once a month.  It is coming faster and faster and faster!!! I just cant believe how big you are getting.  I think I really look pregnant now!

I love you to the moon and back.

Love, Mommy

Thanksgiving!

I sure had a good time for Thanksgiving with my family.  I cannot wait until next year when I get to have my little boy here to share it with.  It was at my parents house this year, just our family, Colton, and grandma and grandpa J.  It was very relaxing. 

Dear Bubba,

I can't wait to meet you.  You get bigger and stronger every day.  Don't forget mommy loves you to the moon and back!

Love, Mommy

Finished finished finished!!!!

Dear Bubba,

            You Are getting so strong! I can feel you kick all the time.  Sometimes it is a funny feeling, like tickles.  Sometimes it is like bubbles popping.  I love feeling you move and wiggle around.  You are more active in the afternoon/early evening than you are in the morning. 

            Exciting things have been happening.  I am completely finished with school. I just have to wait for December 15^th and I am officially graduated! Yay! I finished student teaching on Tuesday and I promised the kids that I would send a picture of you to Mr. Huxford after you are born.  I bet they will think you are super cute!!

I have been thinking a lot about names lately. I have one that I really like, but I am not sure if that is who you are going to be until you are actually born and I see your face.  But Michael will be your middle name for sure. After your grandpa.  He is a great role model for you Bubba.

I love you to the moon and back!

Love Mommy

22 weeks!!!

I am getting bigger and bigger!

Over halfway!!!

Dear Peanut,

            I have been thinking about you constantly, but of course you ensure that by being so wiggly.  I love feeling you move. It is wonderful.  We are over halfway now.  As I listened to your heartbeat last night I think it was really the first time I have let myself dream about you.  I have been so scared to before because I never really know if you were going to stay.  I am still scared of loosing you but it is getting so much closer to reality.  You are getting so big and strong.  Only 4.5 more months and I will get to meet you.  Please continue to grow and be strong.  I love you so much. More than words.

            I love you to the moon and back.

Love, Mommy

Ultrasound Pictures!

I LOVE MY BABY BOY!!

Wow!!

IT'S A BOY!!!

We had our ultrasound last week.It was amazing! I am so happy and so grateful for my beautiful little boy growing and being strong.  The doctor said everything looks great. At first I was afraid that we wouldn't get to see what he was, but I guess the tech knew the whole time, she was just waiting to see if she could get a shot so that we could see.  My mom, dad and brother Jacob came. It was neat.  He kept his hands up by his face and at one point he was sucking his thumb.  We got to see his little arms and toes and his cute little face!  Pictures to follow!

ITS A BOY!!!

Dear Peanut,

            You are a boy!! My little man! I have felt like that is what you were since the beginning.  I love you so much.  You grandma CJ, grandpa Mike and uncle Jake came with me to the ultrasound.  It was so neat!  I got to see you wiggling around and moving your hands up by your face.  It was so neat.  At first we were not sure if we would be able to see your gender, then you moved around and there it was!  You are so cute!  There was a second there when all the sudden I thought, “Wow….there really is a baby in there!”  It was amazing.

            I have so many dreams for what you will be like. Now I can hardly stand the wait until I get to see you and hold you for real.  I love having you grow and get strong in my belly but I can’t wait to see your precious face.  You are my miracle. I love you more than life and words.

            I love you to the moon and back.

Love, Mommy

19 weeks!

Tomorrow come faster!!!

October 26, 2011

           

Dear Peanut,

            I get to see you tomorrow! I can’t believe how fast and how incredibly slow it has come. I am so excited. I really hope you choose to be modest so that we can get a good look if you are a boy or a girl.  I can’t wait to start narrowing down names and picking out clothes and decorating you room.

            My dad and mom (you grandpa and grandma) are coming with us to the appointment.  They are really excited too.  You are their first grandchild.  You are going to be spoiled rotten.  They are going to be so happy.  You uncles Adam and Jake and you Aunt Katie are very excited as well.  Everyone can’t wail until march when you make your arrival.  Or sooner, but not a lot sooner please. Stay put until you are good and cooked. 

            I love you to the moon and back.

Love, Mommy

Soooo close!!

This little baby is starting to let me know he/she is here. I just can't wait until I get to have the ultrasound next thursday and say He or She and not both. LOL.  It is coming so fast but taking soo long!  I am really excited.

I can feel little movements here and there, but I never know if it is really him/her or if it is a gas bubble or what.  I can't wait until I really feel him/her move and know what part is poking me! 

I am working all week but I actually have sunday off so I am going to church finally! I had plans to go last week and then at the last minute I got called into work and that sure as heck made me mad/disappointed.  I have had a rough week with a lot of things coming at me all at once.  I will be glad for a break and time to just be me and have Katie B here for the weekend. 

I love you to the moon and back baby!

18 weeks!

I am starting to grow.  It is so much fun. Random people have started touching my belly. I know that the second half of this baby cooking business I will keep growing bigger and bigger!

Baby baby!

Dear Peanut,

           

 Mommy loves you.  I simply can’t wait to find out who you are going to be.  My ultrasound is going to be in nine days.  I am not really even sure what your name is going to be at this point.  How can I name a whole person?  What do I want your name to say about you?  I am finding that before you are even here it is tough to be a mommy. 

            I have made a lot of changes to get ready for you.  I moved apartments, so you would have a room to your very own.  I stopped doing things that might hurt you.  I even started going back to church.  That has been really hard, but I will do anything for you.

            My belly has started to grow.  Some people say that I am showing now. I love to see my body changing.  I am just so excited for when I really get to feel you move. 

Love, Mommy

Terrible Terrible Terrible!!

I have been awful at this!. I am going to set a reminder in my phone so I can remember to post because I really want to have this record!  Well to catch up I am 17 weeks now.  My ultrasound is scheduled for October 27. Just two short and oooohhhh sooooo long weeks from today. I am so excited I can't handle it.  I am going to hopefully find out if it is a boy or a girl!

Well here are my pictures to give you an idea what has been going on the last few weeks:


Here I am at eleven weeks

and again at fifteen weeks.

And finally here is yesterday at 17 weeks.

Going fast and yet soooo soooo sooo slow!

Pregnancy week:    10

Child length:    0.8-1.6 in
Child weight:    approx. 0.09 oz
At this stage:    Membrane between fingers and toes disappears. Tooth buds are formed.

In the tenth week of pregnancy, we bid farewell to the embryo and welcome the fetus. In the 10th week, the child has all the organs that are required for further existence. Lungs, kidneys, liver, brain and heart work and grow and are in full swing. The organs will of course develop and change over time, but no new ones will be formed. All organs already exist. You slowly move to the stage when you cannot fasten your clothes and 3/4 of your closet contents turn out to be useless. It's time to look for maternity clothes. The web, which was formed between the child's fingers in the 7th week, is now disappearing. Tooth buds are formed.


Your notes
8/17/11- I am still so scared to really think about having a baby. I am still so scared of something going wrong. I wish I could have an ultrasound and see him every day. I love you Peanut. Grow strong!
8/20/11- I had some spotting last night and it really scared me. seriously! I called the doctor and he said everything seemed fine and only to worry if it gets much worse or is painful. I ended up telling my cousin Jessica about you. She is the one who had a baby die last fall and then right after had a miscarraige. She is so strong. I love you peanut. Grow strong!
8/23/11- Second day of actual teaching yesterday went well. I am making a life for us peanut. please grow and be strong.

New BABY!!!

No not mine! LOL I still have a long, long time before this little one is ready to make his debut.  My really good friend Polly Rose and her husband Fred just had their second baby this morning.  He doesn't have a name yet.  I am sure it will be something crazy unique!  Their first son is FredDeeian Growler Tucker (Ian).  He sure is a cutey!! He looks just like his brother Ian. I can't wait to meet him.

8lbs 8 oz. 21 1/2 inches long

Exciting week!!

Pregnancy week:    9

Child length:    approx. 1 in
Child weight:    approx. 0.04 oz
At this stage:    Eyes are covered with eyelids. Ears move sideways. The baby begins to move.

Pregnancy goes on, and you are changing together with the child. You begin to look for a larger bra, as your breasts are still getting bigger (and it will be so until the delivery). You lose a waistline. You cannot fasten tight skirts and pants. You still have some time until you buy maternity clothes, but you can start looking for some pants. If you carry a boy, his penis, testicles and seminal vesicles are just growing. The embryo more and more resembles a human being. Eyes are covered with eyelids, ears are moving sideways. Neck starts to be visible. Baby has began movement.


Your notes
8/16/11- I have been very busy but every spare second is spent thinking of you. I love you peanut. Today I get to see you! In just one hour I will be bat the doctor and he will do an ultrasound. I am so excited. I am going to go get ready!

Sitting at the doctors right now. minutes away from seeing you. I am soooo nervous peanut. Please be strong and healthy. I love you so much already and even though it doesnt seem possible it doubles everyday. I love my sweet pea!

Oh my goodness that was amazing. everything looked so perfect. i got to see your tiny heart beating. You are so perfect and the dr said everything is healthy and beautiful. I cant believe you are really in there! I love you even more.

First Baby Pictures!!

I had an ultrasound today for the first time. It was soo cool! I can't believe there is actually something in there. I got to see his/her little heart and hear it beat. It was so awesome.  I can't wait until the next one when I get to see if it is a boy or a girl!  Not for at least 7 more weeks! Torture!

Baby growing!

Pregnancy week:    8

Child length:    0.3-0.7 in
Child weight:    approx. 0.02 oz
At this stage:    The middle ear and vestibular system are developing. Eyelids are formed. Bones replace cartilage - spine and ribs begin to form.

If you like bungee jumping and falling in general, the child will suffer a fall as well. The time to set martial arts and extreme sports aside. If you are bursting with energy - swim, swim and swim again. Take turns with long marches. Show respect to Nordic walking - with a clear conscience, you can spend all your money on the poles. You start to gain weight. By the end of pregnancy your weight will increase by an average of 12 kg. Middle ear is formed, and the labyrinth. Eyelids are formed. Bones begin to form - spine and ribs.


Your notes
8/5/11- It has been a weeks since I last wrote. I love you peanut. I went rafting this week for work. It was kind of fun at times. But I spent most of the time scared something would happen to you. I love you sweetheart. Every night before I fall asleep I put my hand on my belly and whisper: "I love you Peanut. Please grow and be strong."
I am starting to feel uncomfortable in my pants. I know i shouldnt be this early and it concerns me. I want to ask the doctor about it. Only 10 days until I get to see the baby.
8/6/11- Hey Peanut, today I didnt eat very healthy and i am definately feeling it. I will start eating healthier for you baby. I am going to get on a plan and exercise too. It is hard to do but if I cant make changes for you I can't make changes for anyone.

Sleepy sleepy

Pregnancy week:    7

Child length:    approx. 0.4 in
Child weight:    approx. 0.01 oz
At this stage:    Fingers begin to appear. Forebrain and midbrain are developing. Eye primordia are formed.

Your life can go on quite normally. If you have already consulted your gynecologist you are certainly aware of the monthly check-up visits until the delivery time. Your doctor has probably made up your pregnancy card or will do it soon. Enjoy your life! You're a healthy woman, and your body is in full swing. If you practice sport, this is the period to achieve the best results. However, use your common sense. Your child's health is now the most important, thus you always need to consult a doctor. The embryo already has fingers, but they are connected by... a web. The brain develops forebrain, midbrain and hindbrain. Eye primordia are formed, so far without eyelids.

Your notes
7/27/11- It is five in the morning and I can't sleep. I am so scared of loosing you peanut. I love and want you so bad. Please be strong and grow. Please father help him grow and be healthy. I love him so much already.
7/28?11- I had my first momma bear instinct moment today. They were talking at work about how one of the girls had kicked a staff in the stomach. I thought if anyone tried that with me and hurt my baby boy I would kick their ass! I am falling in love with my peanut. I want him so bad. i felt fine today. Just peeing a lot and I canMt stand the thought of eating hamburger. It makes me want to puke! lol
7/30/11- I really need to find a new job. My current job at the girls home is too dangerous while pregnant. There is too much risk of a violent restraint. I have looked all morning and I can't find much on the Job service site. I have a few leads. I will look into them. I need to get a current resume typed up. I am doing everything I can for you peanut.

Anxiety is a four letter word

Pregnancy week:    6

Child length:    approx. 0.16 in
Child weight:    less than 0.01 oz
At this stage:    Formed nucleus of the brain, primordia of arms and legs. Intestines and blood vessels are in place.

In the sixth week of pregnancy arm and leg buds appear - upper limb buds around 40th day of pregnancy, and lower limbs a few days later. The embryo's brain is now a layer of rounded cells. You can still have nausea and feel tired and irritable. If you happen to visit your gynecologist this week, you may be witnessing a phenomenal event. You can see your child's heart beats. How is it possible? The gynecologist must have really good radiological equipment, for the blood of your blood and flesh of your flesh is currently about ... 4 mm long.


Your notes
7/20/11- Today was the doctors appt and I am definately pregnant! I had a moment of panic right before they came with the results that I had imagined it all. But the nurse came in and said the test she was running had already turned positive so it was a for sure. The test line is very dark. I couldnt even wrap my head around the situation well enough to ask questions. I love my OB he is awesome.  All he did today was go over my medications and figure out a plan. But the best part!  He scheduled an ultrasound for August 16!! Only four weeks away and yet four long weeks away. I can't wait.
7/21/11- I told the father. In someways I wish I hadn't because now I have to share you. LOL selfish! He is really good and seems excited about it. I feel like time is moving slow! I am very tired today and hungry. I want to eat cheese. It is a funny thing to be craving. I am telling your grandma and grandpa this weekend. I am very nervous.
7/22/11-  I am tired today. I felt the first little twinges of nausea today. It isn't too bed but you never know. Soo tired. I still cant believe this is really happening. I am starting to settle more with the news and don't feel like i have to blurt it out t everyone I see. I just cant wait until the 16th. 25 Days!
7/24/11- I told my mom and dad about the pregnancy. They were pretty good about it. I bet once things get going further along they will be really excited to be grandparents. Hey little peanut are you really in there? 23 days until I get to see you!
7/25/11- Hey little peanut. I want you so bad. Please grow and be healthy. My breasts are so sore now. One of the girls gave me a hug and i almost cried. I am really starting to fall in love with my peanut. I dont really dare though. What if something happens and I loose him?

What's new in baby cooking this week

Pregnancy Week: 5

Detailed child info:
Weight: less than 0.01 oz
Length: 0.05-0.1 in
At this stage: The heart starts beating. Formed nervous coil and placenta. The embryo has a tail.

The life in woman's uterus develops just as it evolved on the Earth, only the pace is, let's say, strongly accelerated. From single-celled organism, through what with difficulty can be confused with fish or reptile, and until developing obviously mammalian and finally specifically human features. The fifth week is the period when the neural tube begins to form. Two thirds of its length will develop into brain, and the rest will become the spinal cord. This is an extremely important moment in the child's development. The mother should take folic acid to minimize the chance of neural tube defects in the child. You feel tired, sleepy, irritable, you can have some first pregnancy cravings. Your body switches to another mode.

Your notes
7/14/11---I am so tired. All I want to do is sleep. I want to eat everything too. I am soooo excited for the time when everything makes me puke. I am learning to adjust to things I need to avoid. Caffiene is the hardest. I am still very excited!
7/15/11---I am having strong cramps. i am terrified of them. there is no bleeding though and everywhere i have read says they are normal. i am anxious to go to the doctor on wednesday when i am five weeks and ask the doctor about them.
7/16/11-- This doesn't seem real. I keep thinking that I am going to wake up and it is not going to be true. What if I am imagining it? What if it just disappears?I think I have spent a small fortune on pregnancy tests. I keep thinking I imagined it all and taking more. It is so awesome watching the little pink line appear.
7/17/11-If I was wrong in my calculations then this is the last possible day my period should have started. No sign. I guess I am pregnant. I hit my first bought of nausea this morning. it wasn't too bad yet. It is going to be awful. But i had more energy this morning. Now I am crashing hard. It is going to be a long drive to see my friend Marie and her adorable daughter Adelae. Holy crap I am pregnant!
7/18/11- I am tired but today was pretty good. Physically I felt fine but emotionally I was really down. I think I need to be back on antidepressant. I am going to ask the doctor about it on Wednesday.
7/19/11- I am so excited to go to the doctor tommorrow and super anxious.  I wrote down a list of questions for him to answer.  I can't want.  Maybe it will make this all seem more real!

Wow!! The Beautifulness of that little line!

I can't believe it.  I bought the test and took it because I couldn't wait any longer. I didn't seriously believe I was actually pregnant or that the test would be accurate this soon. I am in disbelief!

So many emotions: scared, happy, unsure, TERRIFIED!

I think I should start out with a little background about me. 

I have MS and PCOS.  I was on birthcontrol until just this last month when I miss just two days.   I figured there was a one in a million chance I'd get pregnant anyway with only being off the pill for two-three days and with the PCOS. Low and behold!!! I haven't told the father, we broke up before I found out I was pregnant.


At the end of last week I started feeling crampy, like my period was about to start a week early.  Then I started having to pee every other minute and my breasts hurt.  It was still two days before my period but I was just too impatient.  Am I? No there is no way.  Well I was at the store and just couldn't help myself.  I bought some tests. I almost feel down when I realized that it was reading positive!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!! WHAT?!?! NO.....it couldn't be true. So eight dollar store and two Walmart tests later.....and sure enough. I even splurged for one of those digital ones.  I called the doctor today and I have an appt for next Wednesday.  I am not sure what to expect. I am just really happy and excited! I really hope everything is alright and all goes well. Pray for me!

Adios, I have to go pee.